closure

after a sms chat with serene last night i have come to the conclusion that i am an asshole.

So this is an unconditional apology to jermee

1)I'm sorry i used this blog to sort this mess out. Bcos even if this is my blog and i want to use this to air out my true feelings, this is an inappropriate platform to terminate that frenship.I am a coward and i don't like confrontation, which is why i took the easy way out. At the very least it warranted a face to face talk; to throw a bombshell like that was disrespectful to u.

2) I'm sorry that i used the word hate. Bcos i dun hate u. U said in a post on your blog that u are not gonna bother if ppl can't accept u for who you are. Yeah i can't, its called a personality clash, its not sth that is wrong with u, bcos as far as i can remember u are a nice person, u care for your frens and you are generous with your frens. I can't take back the words that i wrote bcos in real life u can't take back the words u say but if i could have turned back the hands of time i would have said something to this effect :" I can't dun feel comfortable around you and i dun think we can be friends" which would have made far more sense that what i wrote.

3) I'm sorry for the timing. It came far too late, and it came at a bad time. I would have come clean earlier if not for the fact that u and tk were having some probs....and the last thing i wanted to do was to walk out on ppl who were already troubled by probs with their frens. when u started to turn to me and xueqi i told tk at that time that i couldn't fill the hole that he left and thats why he shld patch things up with u...i waited until i was sure that u guys were ok before i decided to pull this off, but i realised that it cuts extremely close to the a-levels and i'm sorry for any emotional distress i have caused u during this emotionally sensitive time.

4) I'm sorry to your fren yks. Who i have posted quite sarcarstic comments on his blog and over here. Bcos quite obviously he and i have quite diff priorities on wat we think are important to us, he obv values loyalty to frens and is going a rough patch in his life. In his eyes i noe i look like a spoiled brat bcos there are other things that are going wrong in his life which may make mine pale in comparison....but until hes in my shoes and feeling wat i feel hes to me what i am to him.

5)I'm sorry that things didn't work out. Cos u really tried hard to be frens with me and i really tried to reciprocate the favour. however sometimes stuff happens, and well i never thought that i would one day be the one that wreaks havoc, well it turns out i am. And i hate myself for that well i wish u the best in all your endeavours and i hope that one day we will meet again under more pleasant circumstances.