I'm sorry it took so long to get this out. But i couldn't let you read this, not that night as we were still talking.

Before you revisted me i thought i had closed this chapter in my life. but you just had to appear again didn't you. you woke me from my quiet reverie at a time when i was feeling the most emotionally vulnerable and for the first time in months i felt more alive than i had ever been. But these moments, sweet as they are, are evil when they are gone.

And just this once i'm sorry i can't be your best friend/your go to guy. i have to be selfish and think of myself this time because it already hurts so much inside and i can't be the nice guy all the time.

For once you have a real shot at something nice and i can tell you have an attachment for this guy. He may not be like me but he has endeared himself to you in his own ways and i don't want to ruin it. I just wished i could have been a part of your happiness don't blame me for feeling so.

goodbye.