Apathy

I hate the life I'm leaving...

A few years ago i was in this exact same rut, this same...non-existence...i thought i had turned around, thought i had made it good...results, relationships, everything u could think of...i thot i had conquered it...

Now i realised that i had just made it smaller.

But the darkness returns, little by little it returned back to my side...and now i don't noe whether i still have the strength to fight it again or not...

And no...this is not turning into why my life is so horrible, i just want to kill myself...if theres nothing i hate more let it be self pity...

Which is why i'm going to fight it...and i noe i'll win...