just saw this quiz on jermees website..so i decided to answer a few
qns not all of them haha
3. No. of family members? umm 5...but it maybe as well 0 since i dun
talk to them
6. No. of boyfriends or girlfriends u had? 0 (uguu~)
8. Favourite colour? Purple. But its a gay color to wear so my fav
color to wear is blue.
11. Favourite clothes brand? My mum thinks i'm brand concious but
really i just go for design...and samuel and kevin makes nice
designs...i wait till they have steep discounts though...wahhaha
14. Favourite food? black pepper crab
15. Favourite drink? China apple. I have 10 $1 china apple bottles
bought especially for me
16. If u were stuck on an island, who is the first person u wud think
about? dun tell u
19. Do you pluck your eyebrows? ...Yes. Not by design though. I had
itchy fingers one day and just started pulling hairs out.(yeah ok
ewww). If u look carefully theres this slight patch on my left eyebrow
that looks like it was a scar but its really the spot where i pulled a
lot of hair out...not really obvious anymore so i dun care lah.
21. Could you live without a computer? at the risk of sounding like a
s3 geek...nope (haha the s3 thing is a joke ok...u guys spent too much
time on utopia)
23. Do you drink enough water? I dun drink plain water. Really.
25. Are you photogenic? Why of cou...No. (uguu~)
26. Do you dream in color or black and white? Technicolor
29. What is the most beautiful language? English
31. Do you want to live to be 100? hell i dun wanna live until 60
33. Are you tolerant of other people's beliefs? Not really.i think
worshipping ancestors is stupid.
45. What makes you happy? Surprisingly little
46. What makes you sad? Surprisingly a lot. Any sort of violence
towards women generally.
47. What are you wishing for now? a girlfren haha i noe someone will
come along eventually...i just wish they would come now =P
48. Do you believe in love at first sight? Not really
50. Have you ever wanted to tell someone you loved him/her, but you
didnt? no. somehow they always noe haha i can't keep my bloody secrets.
I've managed to keep the latest one under wraps haha lets see how long
this lasts...
In the last 24 hours have u...
55. cried - like a sissy
thats all folks~!
Tuesday, August 31, 2004
bio prac
haha had a tough time todae...First qns was a food test, first sign that it was going wrong was when i had to remake the four solutions in the two test-tubes. twice since i kept messing up...afte that things started going downhill...with only 5 mins left b4 the handover i quickly put performed the benedicts test when the water was boiling yet (since it took such a damm long time to boil), and took it out just b4 the changeover since i thot we had to change places...but of course we hadn't so ended up with 2 similarly colored tubes. didn't feel like doing the damm thing again so just left it there.
2nd qns was abt plasmolysis...u had to stain the onion epidermis and then placed it in diff sucrose solutions to let the water out...then looked at it under the microscope...for some reason when i looked under the microscope i couldn't see anything. Just cell walls...so i faked all the results. bai bai 2nd qns ~ haha to make things worse i started sweating so much that the lab teacher especially turned on the fan for me...inbetween staring incredulously at my answers...
3rd qns was slightly better...just missed out stuff like magnification and crap..haha but it isn't enuff to make up for the onion debacle ...
And being the masochist that i am i came home and decided to learn cascading style sheets ...
2nd qns was abt plasmolysis...u had to stain the onion epidermis and then placed it in diff sucrose solutions to let the water out...then looked at it under the microscope...for some reason when i looked under the microscope i couldn't see anything. Just cell walls...so i faked all the results. bai bai 2nd qns ~ haha to make things worse i started sweating so much that the lab teacher especially turned on the fan for me...inbetween staring incredulously at my answers...
3rd qns was slightly better...just missed out stuff like magnification and crap..haha but it isn't enuff to make up for the onion debacle ...
And being the masochist that i am i came home and decided to learn cascading style sheets ...
Saturday, August 28, 2004
cuddle and a kiss on the forehead - you like to be
close to your special someone and feel warm,
comfortable, and needed
What Sign of Affection Are You?
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haha this is really accurate...prob becos i chose the cuddle up to someone option under what u would want to do if u had a gf...theres nothing else i would want to do really...curl up to her and purr softly like a kitten haha
Uguu~
i only reserve that expression for times when i'm really tired or sianz...and yes i noe i'm ripping images left right and centre none of the graphics over here are my own...haha i don't even bother to host them i'm such a bad person...
I opened up my com three times in 2 days to fix a spoilt cpu fan that wasn't spinning...and i failed. Haiz...haha i guess i really have to go down to sim lim to get a real cpu fan(and from what i hear they bundle with a heatsink only...) hope they don't cost me a bomb. Its works alright without the fan though...i just cannot play games...
On friday arranged to meet risu-chan and yuki at comex at 2.00...risu overshot shaw tower ended up at harbourfront and took an hour to get back...and he was already late by half and hour. Yuki wasn't much better...late by 1 hour. If it pays to be punctual...i'm not seeing it haha...bcos i stood in front of the shaw movie counter for45 mins looking at movie previews...without sound. My eyes hurt after that. Btw Resident Evil 2 is looking pretty sweet...
Went down to comex on friday with yuki and risu-chan to try and find a cpu fan and also see what they have there...apparently more of the same stuff. Mp3 players, laptops, digital cameras, projectors, printer refillers, lcd screens and xbox games. Notably absent were things like crt monitors and scanners. ( u noe stuff that work perfectly fine but somehow gets abandoned)
I guess thats what i hate about that don't whats its name theory of efficiency(a sure sign that i shld start studying econs but ummm...nvm.), the one that states they u shld go into the industries that are emerging and get out of industries that are in decline. It reeks of...well i hate to use this word becos its very generic and can apply to many things (and has been applied to many things) and doesn't really mean anything at all...but i can't really think of words to use so WTH...consumerism and fadism and popularism(?). I'm a little confused myself...but if u think abt it a good example would be bubble tea...yeah its an expanding industry adn there was expanding demand for it...but to see everybody chasing it like a pretty young thing is just hilarious to me...in fact my father wanted to sell bubble tea at his drink stall. He likes to think hes entrepeunerial but really hes just a copycat...and worse a really late one...by then shops were popping up and closing everynight. So i can't really claim credit for stopping him from selling it..but i digress.
to me its no different from pop music...it changes based on whos "in" and whos "cool" and i hate that...which is why i turned off the radio when they started to blare out clubbing music...haha my mind is a mess...i don't think i even noe what i'm writing so i'm going to stop this train of thought here.(except for one more point...bubbletea sucks)
Aniwae the whole expo was quite boring to me....yeah expanding industries are innovative and initially they are exciting...but to see generic versions popping up just becos these things are making money is just so stupid...i dunno man aniwae they had two levels xbox games on one level and the others on the second level...(there could be some other things on the xbox level...but i wasn't paying attn =P) The only memorable game i played was hunter the reckoning, which was a mindless hack and slash co-op. I dunno why but for an above average intelligence person like me why do i like to do repetitive stuff? but i digress (AGAIN) ...
top level were all the hardhitters....dell and canon and blah blah...we skipped all the major stuff and went to the back...where there was an argubably larger crowd there...Thats where all the odds and ends go....software, magazines, accessories. modding equipment some game design college cd repair kits and stuff like that...these don't really change year to year but i'm glad they exist haha...couldn't find what i was looking for unfortunately...
went back relatively early and came back the next day...which would be today (yay! i can still count...i was sure my intelligence had dropped lots of notches after mugging stats for 5 days) hoping to get a head start on the xbox booths...and i forgot that today was saturday. public holiday u noe...crowds were a killer. I did managed to play the hunter game again with this nice malay boy who gave me pointers and insturctions. Btw whats it with malay boys? when they are young they are like so nice and friendly (i had a malay best fren when i was at pasir ris...played badminton rollerblading and catching with him)..but when they grow up all they want to do is stare and you and do mud(sp?) stuff. Like the malay boys near my block. Aniwae i went back to visit the booths that i missed the prev day. Bcos even though i hate all the stuff they were selling...i am a completionist.
So that was my (2) days. If theres something that needs to be mentioned and by god seeing as to how i managed to mention everything else here...Apple has one sweet looking booth. 31 inch widescreen displays, the ipod and ipod mini, u noe what even the operating system deserves mention. Say what u want about the ipod and ipod mini (and some day i will say everything abt it bcos i just love it)...it looks gimmicky and trendy and looks like it was designed to be with the popular crowd...but damm it feels like gold in your hands(not heavy). And i'm willing to forgive it for that. In fact i'm willing to forgive everything that mac makes, and even buy them...if only it didn't have a monopoly over the software and the hardware which makes everything so damm ex, just becos it all looks sw00t.[ Even microsoft only has monopoly over software (windows). ]
Friday, August 27, 2004
Yatah!
Added a link to becky's new texas blog
got a long post...but i dunno whether to post it...so instead i'm posting my sp char
I managed to isolate the freezing prob to a cpu overheat all cpu intensive activities like games and mp3 encoding and SETI@home freezes my com...hopefully can fix it when i get some fans...
got a long post...but i dunno whether to post it...so instead i'm posting my sp char
I managed to isolate the freezing prob to a cpu overheat all cpu intensive activities like games and mp3 encoding and SETI@home freezes my com...hopefully can fix it when i get some fans...
Wednesday, August 25, 2004
hey i think this is fixed
You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted,
care-free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You
have friends and most absolutely love you. You
can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging
in anger the next so no one wants to get on
your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and
magical.
What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
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hell i just like the pic
You are a loner...not that you don't like people,
it's just that you like to spend time with
yourself or you are an outsider...don't like
talking too much and even going
out...loneliness isn't healthy, but you like
it...what can say?! Just live the way you
want...u_u
What kind of friend are you?(anime pics)
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Darn i was hoping it'd be white or grey
Gold - > Gold eh? You're strong willed that's for
sure. And you're quite distant. In your
opinion people are worthless. You're kind and
gentle inside. But because of your defenses
and tragic home-life that you don't tell
anybody, most people don't see it. You're dark
sometimes and you're very creative. You're a
natural born writer. Try to tell somebody
about your inner pain - it's eating away at
your soul.
What Color Are Your Anime Eyes?
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Tuesday, August 24, 2004
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if i am going to be short all my life i want to be short and fat and cute like mashimaro
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I want to play survival project...but it keeps freezing and bringing down my com with it...and everytime theres more than 3 sprites on screen the game starts stuttering...uguu~ some things are not meant to be...
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I want to play survival project...but it keeps freezing and bringing down my com with it...and everytime theres more than 3 sprites on screen the game starts stuttering...uguu~ some things are not meant to be...
Monday, August 23, 2004
woe
Fact 1: When i am at home...i'll download something irregardless of the hard disk space i have or the number of blank cds i have.
Fact 2: I've ran out of blank cds.
Fact 3: U noe those little flimsy paper notes that u use to buy blank cds with? I ran out of those too.
What does this mean?
It means that starting from 11:00am tmr....i'm going to lock myself up in the marine parade library to prevent myself from killing my hard drive
Woe.
to prepare myself i went down to stake out the prospective site....its quite comfortable...a little chilly at night but nothing that my favourite pull-over can't handle... It starts getting a bit warm and drowsy towards the afternoon time too but i guess that happens everywhere so i'll just take a nap when that time comes...as a side note i found out that studying can help me to pass the time quite easily too...so i guess thats one thing i can do if i get sick of reading all the comics or spying on sec school kids.
If i calculate correctly...that still leaves me with 3 hours during which i'll still download stuff and surf the net and upadte my blog..so any donations of cds or money will be oh so helpful. Not tk or xq though...i still owe u guys 12 and 18 bucks respectively.
If u wish to find me at my new humble abode to either donate cds or laugh at me...i'll be at the children's section near the back where all the st pats guys and kc girls like to make out...
Fact 2: I've ran out of blank cds.
Fact 3: U noe those little flimsy paper notes that u use to buy blank cds with? I ran out of those too.
What does this mean?
It means that starting from 11:00am tmr....i'm going to lock myself up in the marine parade library to prevent myself from killing my hard drive
Woe.
to prepare myself i went down to stake out the prospective site....its quite comfortable...a little chilly at night but nothing that my favourite pull-over can't handle... It starts getting a bit warm and drowsy towards the afternoon time too but i guess that happens everywhere so i'll just take a nap when that time comes...as a side note i found out that studying can help me to pass the time quite easily too...so i guess thats one thing i can do if i get sick of reading all the comics or spying on sec school kids.
If i calculate correctly...that still leaves me with 3 hours during which i'll still download stuff and surf the net and upadte my blog..so any donations of cds or money will be oh so helpful. Not tk or xq though...i still owe u guys 12 and 18 bucks respectively.
If u wish to find me at my new humble abode to either donate cds or laugh at me...i'll be at the children's section near the back where all the st pats guys and kc girls like to make out...
Sunday, August 22, 2004
To: xueqi
haha i'm posting here becos i don't want to overwhelm your tagboard...
to practise my gp...i'll proceed to rebut your points convincingly...put forth my own arguments, compare and contrast my views and yours and then put forth a concluding statement.
heh i hope i get a1 for this.
My dear neko-chan...you are not one of the 22 percent of the singapore population that has never been attached before in your life... simply becos your only 18! The people they interviewed were liek 40 to 50 something!. Come back to me like 30 years down the road and maybe i'll agree with you...but not now...
since i have already rebutted your points (which were all based on that one flismy argument)...lets move on to my iew of the situation....no lah just kidding
short stature: kawaii wat (new nickname for u...chibi-ko chan!)
boyish nature: hmm..that's a valid point...not! i don't noe where u got that idea from...i tink that your so used to thinking that your boyish for so long that u started believing it for..u want
boyish...heres boyish
looks: no comment (but u asked ppl not to comment wat)...just keep in mind that looks are dependant on the person's opinion of you...didn't u read the recent straits time article?
i won't comment about the rest...becos honestly i dun noe u that well to comment...u may hav obsessive complusive disorder or schizophrenia for all i noe...but if i don't see it i doubt others will...
"never had a guy like me before"- no...u just never had a guy who liked u tell u that he liked u before.
okay lets move on to why i think your single...assuming that u don't like singlehood(note to self...will have tendency to digress into why singlehood is not not bad...must remain focus on qns)
u are too focused on the fact that u're single...ignore that fact for a while and you will notice that u have more guy frens than some girls would have in a lifetime...yet your so focused on the romatic side of your relationships with boys that u fail to realise that any one of your platonic relationships can develop into something more...maybe one of you grows more attractive to the other person, maybe one of you decides to try taking the relationship to the next step...do note that these things take time...if your looking for the love at first side option forget it...its all one commercialised boatload of crap...theres no one right guy for you...there are lots of guys that will suit you well...you need time not to find them, but to let them come to you...
the reason why i'm spending 1 hour of my time on the eve of an exam to write this is becos i was in the same boat as you...and i don't mind blogging about it just not now...and its stupid u noe...getting depressed over something that is imaginary...letting it affect your self conidence, your morale...make it qns your existence(i dunno whether u got do that or not haha i idid thats how bad it got)...and i dun want u to remain in it for any longer than its necessary...i dun want to see u get sad and depressed whenever anyone u like doesn't like u becos u just shrug it off and wait for the next person to come...
And now for my concluding statement-if i get below a1 for my gp...i noe who to blame(just kidding lah...i haven't been studying gp the whole day)
heres my blog entry before xq came and derailed my plans...
Someone asked me why i wasn't studying for gp..."wah u so confident rite"
No i'am not. Its just that i think studying for gp is crap.
I think its better for gp to identify what your strengths and weaknesses are(quite frankly you hav to do that for every subject, but for gp its more essential) I'm a person who likes to noe wat his weaknesses and strengths are...and while my english is my better subject...i have as much chance of getting a1 as i do for my other subjects (0)...and comeon we are all aiming for a1 rite?
Why is that so?
My essay scores high marks in gp sometimes...but looking carefully at it its far too inconsistent to gurantee me a high score...and one thing the teachers have missed is that i tend not to give concrete examples.While i do read widely and stay on top of things...it also means that i can only gather a large amount of generalised knowledge as opposed to what a person spotting communications and media might be able to do...it also means that in an exam...i have a wide choice of qns to do becos it appears i may be able to do all of them...yet in reality i may be well versed in one subject but not the one i chose. In all the school tests...the comments have noted that i lack detail (sometimes even getting facts outright wrong), lack balance and sometimes lack content, all becos i do not have concrete examples to back me up...hence i always go for qns that require more thinking and less rote regurgitation...which makes mugging content for gp even more harder.
but its the comprehension component that pulls me down even more...while the bulk of marks is awarded to replacing words with your own...i have trouble identifying even the ideas that need to be replaced and i have a tendency to simply rewrite statements with wanton regard for key words and instead forgoing that for a preference for smooth flowing sentences and grammar. this may seem easy to remedy but to strike a balance between content and language in comprehension is not easy for me...i used to have trouble in application and summary but that has been partially overcome, at least to a level of which i am satisfied of.
so why shld i mug? i would rather put my time elsewhere...liek understanding maths concepts or something...rather than mugging vocab or kaleidoscope...since my weakness lies not in my concept or ideas but in my execution..unlike my other subjects...and i hate mugging examples
my prediction for gp? B3 and quite frankly i'll be happy with that...despite what i said about aiming for a1...becos theres a dif between what your aiming for and wat your expect....and i'm always happy with what i expect...does that make sense?
to practise my gp...i'll proceed to rebut your points convincingly...put forth my own arguments, compare and contrast my views and yours and then put forth a concluding statement.
heh i hope i get a1 for this.
My dear neko-chan...you are not one of the 22 percent of the singapore population that has never been attached before in your life... simply becos your only 18! The people they interviewed were liek 40 to 50 something!. Come back to me like 30 years down the road and maybe i'll agree with you...but not now...
since i have already rebutted your points (which were all based on that one flismy argument)...lets move on to my iew of the situation....no lah just kidding
short stature: kawaii wat (new nickname for u...chibi-ko chan!)
boyish nature: hmm..that's a valid point...not! i don't noe where u got that idea from...i tink that your so used to thinking that your boyish for so long that u started believing it for..u want
boyish...heres boyish
looks: no comment (but u asked ppl not to comment wat)...just keep in mind that looks are dependant on the person's opinion of you...didn't u read the recent straits time article?
i won't comment about the rest...becos honestly i dun noe u that well to comment...u may hav obsessive complusive disorder or schizophrenia for all i noe...but if i don't see it i doubt others will...
"never had a guy like me before"- no...u just never had a guy who liked u tell u that he liked u before.
okay lets move on to why i think your single...assuming that u don't like singlehood(note to self...will have tendency to digress into why singlehood is not not bad...must remain focus on qns)
u are too focused on the fact that u're single...ignore that fact for a while and you will notice that u have more guy frens than some girls would have in a lifetime...yet your so focused on the romatic side of your relationships with boys that u fail to realise that any one of your platonic relationships can develop into something more...maybe one of you grows more attractive to the other person, maybe one of you decides to try taking the relationship to the next step...do note that these things take time...if your looking for the love at first side option forget it...its all one commercialised boatload of crap...theres no one right guy for you...there are lots of guys that will suit you well...you need time not to find them, but to let them come to you...
the reason why i'm spending 1 hour of my time on the eve of an exam to write this is becos i was in the same boat as you...and i don't mind blogging about it just not now...and its stupid u noe...getting depressed over something that is imaginary...letting it affect your self conidence, your morale...make it qns your existence(i dunno whether u got do that or not haha i idid thats how bad it got)...and i dun want u to remain in it for any longer than its necessary...i dun want to see u get sad and depressed whenever anyone u like doesn't like u becos u just shrug it off and wait for the next person to come...
And now for my concluding statement-if i get below a1 for my gp...i noe who to blame(just kidding lah...i haven't been studying gp the whole day)
heres my blog entry before xq came and derailed my plans...
Someone asked me why i wasn't studying for gp..."wah u so confident rite"
No i'am not. Its just that i think studying for gp is crap.
I think its better for gp to identify what your strengths and weaknesses are(quite frankly you hav to do that for every subject, but for gp its more essential) I'm a person who likes to noe wat his weaknesses and strengths are...and while my english is my better subject...i have as much chance of getting a1 as i do for my other subjects (0)...and comeon we are all aiming for a1 rite?
Why is that so?
My essay scores high marks in gp sometimes...but looking carefully at it its far too inconsistent to gurantee me a high score...and one thing the teachers have missed is that i tend not to give concrete examples.While i do read widely and stay on top of things...it also means that i can only gather a large amount of generalised knowledge as opposed to what a person spotting communications and media might be able to do...it also means that in an exam...i have a wide choice of qns to do becos it appears i may be able to do all of them...yet in reality i may be well versed in one subject but not the one i chose. In all the school tests...the comments have noted that i lack detail (sometimes even getting facts outright wrong), lack balance and sometimes lack content, all becos i do not have concrete examples to back me up...hence i always go for qns that require more thinking and less rote regurgitation...which makes mugging content for gp even more harder.
but its the comprehension component that pulls me down even more...while the bulk of marks is awarded to replacing words with your own...i have trouble identifying even the ideas that need to be replaced and i have a tendency to simply rewrite statements with wanton regard for key words and instead forgoing that for a preference for smooth flowing sentences and grammar. this may seem easy to remedy but to strike a balance between content and language in comprehension is not easy for me...i used to have trouble in application and summary but that has been partially overcome, at least to a level of which i am satisfied of.
so why shld i mug? i would rather put my time elsewhere...liek understanding maths concepts or something...rather than mugging vocab or kaleidoscope...since my weakness lies not in my concept or ideas but in my execution..unlike my other subjects...and i hate mugging examples
my prediction for gp? B3 and quite frankly i'll be happy with that...despite what i said about aiming for a1...becos theres a dif between what your aiming for and wat your expect....and i'm always happy with what i expect...does that make sense?
Saturday, August 21, 2004
church
It is time to decide whether your in or your not
You cannot be lukewarm about this
Because God does not like lukewarm
God will spill it out of his mouth
(dunno what's his name pastor)
I'm still trying to figure out wat this pastor meant...anihoo todae was a waste of time actually they invited this pastor who got posted overseas to host a combined service todae...he wasn't the one who said the above actually...sometimes i think pastors when they run out of words in front of the congregration they will just anyhow form any sentence with the word god in it...and in true typical i'm a devout christian fashion the congregation goes "yes!" "yah!" "amen"....sometimes i actually doubt whether they really understand anything or not.
The pastor who came back wasn't much better anyhow...he drew imaginary metaphorical links between unrelated events...and i think he read too much into it. So i slept through a good part of it.
Anyhow the main idea behind the sermon was how jesus would come down and harvest those who had been faithful...and also to warn those with waning faith that the time was coming near when jesus would come down and pick the annointed ones blah blah...in the political world they call it a pep rally, a feel good talk with not much substance.
But the most irritating part actually came after the chruch service actually.
there was this 40-something lady on the chruch bus back home...at first she didn't make any impression on me all i remembered was that she was fliting with this 40 somthing old guy also...but then the guy mentioned that after listening to the stack of sermon cds he had he was going to give it away...at which point she exclaimed "Oh i have been praying to the lord jesus for these kind of people to come along" And then she goes on to complain about how some people were too selfish and that how they weren't willing to share the stuff they had because they paid for it...and somehow she made the connotation that they were in fact too materialistic...as opposed to what? she not willing to shell out bucks for this kinda of stuff and resorting to praying for it? Not like it was expensive aniwae...church sermon cds are cheap
so i thought ok...she's flirting with the guy and trying to get his cds at the same time...not my prob...
then someone she noes comes on the bus (we haven't left church grounds yet) ...and then she starts talking to her about a fren who decides to switch church because of some "conflict" with slut lady, and something about avoiding her even at the coffeeshop. The rest of the conversation goes on like this, "you know what the pastor was talking about the harvest? I don't think she's ready for it. She's too immature" And i thot wtf? I mean its okay to diss someone in your name but to do it in god's name? Okay for all the non-believers out there u can just take god to be like someone else u noe, like "john". And we just had a sermon a couple of weeks ago(which was actually useful) about not judging others, because god will ultimately judge you with the same conditions and he would be even more stricter...so i followed that advice and just thot maybe she meant it some other way...
Then in the middle of dissing her fren (who should be her fren no longer) she suddenly starts to praise herself! About how she prays for everybody and how she has been reading christian books faithfully and at this point i just shut her droning voice out...but i did hear one snippet after that ...about how her fren had actually offended her by not giving her chinese assements books when she gave her fren some stuff , and how her fren actually forgot about it(Really? She did? WTF cares) and how she was actually in the right and at this point i wanted to slap her and shout, "Whos the bloody immature one?!?!"
The last straw came when she actually stopped talking (finally!) and let the person she was talking to start talking...and kudos to that person who actually did some damage control...but unfortunately stupid lady starts going into "yes" and "yah" and "uh-huh" and shaking her head up and down for the rest of the journey...
So yes i had a terrible night. 'nuff said.
You cannot be lukewarm about this
Because God does not like lukewarm
God will spill it out of his mouth
(dunno what's his name pastor)
I'm still trying to figure out wat this pastor meant...anihoo todae was a waste of time actually they invited this pastor who got posted overseas to host a combined service todae...he wasn't the one who said the above actually...sometimes i think pastors when they run out of words in front of the congregration they will just anyhow form any sentence with the word god in it...and in true typical i'm a devout christian fashion the congregation goes "yes!" "yah!" "amen"....sometimes i actually doubt whether they really understand anything or not.
The pastor who came back wasn't much better anyhow...he drew imaginary metaphorical links between unrelated events...and i think he read too much into it. So i slept through a good part of it.
Anyhow the main idea behind the sermon was how jesus would come down and harvest those who had been faithful...and also to warn those with waning faith that the time was coming near when jesus would come down and pick the annointed ones blah blah...in the political world they call it a pep rally, a feel good talk with not much substance.
But the most irritating part actually came after the chruch service actually.
there was this 40-something lady on the chruch bus back home...at first she didn't make any impression on me all i remembered was that she was fliting with this 40 somthing old guy also...but then the guy mentioned that after listening to the stack of sermon cds he had he was going to give it away...at which point she exclaimed "Oh i have been praying to the lord jesus for these kind of people to come along" And then she goes on to complain about how some people were too selfish and that how they weren't willing to share the stuff they had because they paid for it...and somehow she made the connotation that they were in fact too materialistic...as opposed to what? she not willing to shell out bucks for this kinda of stuff and resorting to praying for it? Not like it was expensive aniwae...church sermon cds are cheap
so i thought ok...she's flirting with the guy and trying to get his cds at the same time...not my prob...
then someone she noes comes on the bus (we haven't left church grounds yet) ...and then she starts talking to her about a fren who decides to switch church because of some "conflict" with slut lady, and something about avoiding her even at the coffeeshop. The rest of the conversation goes on like this, "you know what the pastor was talking about the harvest? I don't think she's ready for it. She's too immature" And i thot wtf? I mean its okay to diss someone in your name but to do it in god's name? Okay for all the non-believers out there u can just take god to be like someone else u noe, like "john". And we just had a sermon a couple of weeks ago(which was actually useful) about not judging others, because god will ultimately judge you with the same conditions and he would be even more stricter...so i followed that advice and just thot maybe she meant it some other way...
Then in the middle of dissing her fren (who should be her fren no longer) she suddenly starts to praise herself! About how she prays for everybody and how she has been reading christian books faithfully and at this point i just shut her droning voice out...but i did hear one snippet after that ...about how her fren had actually offended her by not giving her chinese assements books when she gave her fren some stuff , and how her fren actually forgot about it(Really? She did? WTF cares) and how she was actually in the right and at this point i wanted to slap her and shout, "Whos the bloody immature one?!?!"
The last straw came when she actually stopped talking (finally!) and let the person she was talking to start talking...and kudos to that person who actually did some damage control...but unfortunately stupid lady starts going into "yes" and "yah" and "uh-huh" and shaking her head up and down for the rest of the journey...
So yes i had a terrible night. 'nuff said.
Friday, August 20, 2004
yay end of school!
...although i wasn't there to see it heh.
added a column at the side to list those topics of which i hav read through the lecture notes, gone through the tutorials, and am confident of answering any qns that belongs there...looks woefully small doesn't it...
tiki and uki-san came by todae after handing up their hw and basically just showing their faces...showd them some crazy japanese shit (funny jap shit...not *THAT* kind of jap shit) but hello doesn't seem to work for me...all it says is "uploading" and then i don't see anything at all on my blog so i can't show u what i showed them...
went for lunch later at katong (sick of fast food at parkway) which was way better than wat i always ate...tiki's char kway teow had so much lard on it that i swear he didn't need to chew...it would just flow down his throat...but then our metabolism is so high that we can just sit in front of the com and it would all still be burned away...unlike some ppl we noe(rite xueqi?)
then we just went our separate ways...haha i guess at this stage there's a limit to how much we can still play...even uki's frens weren't lanning todae...
am currently listening to the BrIlliAnT GrEEn's winter album...damm good stuff
added a column at the side to list those topics of which i hav read through the lecture notes, gone through the tutorials, and am confident of answering any qns that belongs there...looks woefully small doesn't it...
tiki and uki-san came by todae after handing up their hw and basically just showing their faces...showd them some crazy japanese shit (funny jap shit...not *THAT* kind of jap shit) but hello doesn't seem to work for me...all it says is "uploading" and then i don't see anything at all on my blog so i can't show u what i showed them...
went for lunch later at katong (sick of fast food at parkway) which was way better than wat i always ate...tiki's char kway teow had so much lard on it that i swear he didn't need to chew...it would just flow down his throat...but then our metabolism is so high that we can just sit in front of the com and it would all still be burned away...unlike some ppl we noe
then we just went our separate ways...haha i guess at this stage there's a limit to how much we can still play...even uki's frens weren't lanning todae...
am currently listening to the BrIlliAnT GrEEn's winter album...damm good stuff
Thursday, August 19, 2004
w00t last day of school
...for me at least heh...count me out tmr...
am currently trying out how to fit images into the sidebar container...for some reason if the images are to big they get pushed all the way to the bottom..and i can't seem to stack them together...ahhh the wonders of cascading style sheets...
todae was a really fun day...no really...i haven't had so much fun in quite a while that i ran out of words to describe fun...aniwae went out for swensens with emi-chan (prev ami-chan, changed at her request), uki-san (prev yuki, changed it so that ppl wouldn't tink he was a girl) and tiki-san...can't really remember wat we toked about, i just remembered that i went crazy todae when i saw a whole lot of anime series at cash convertors...so i bought sakura wars, nadia and record of loddoss war. For 17 bucks! Compare that to the time when i shelled out 30 bucks for my ai yori aoshi set...and it was half-priced then. I tink i scared a lot of ppl todae...
Bcos i ran out of money on the spur of the money i called neko-chan...who just so happened to be in tampines at that time....and i feel so guilty for draggin her all they way down to swensens from tm. Its all uki's fault though...he didn't want to lend me the 50 bucks in his pocket.
I'm a very happy bugger now.
And this would prob never reach her...but happy birthday Joy!
am currently trying out how to fit images into the sidebar container...for some reason if the images are to big they get pushed all the way to the bottom..and i can't seem to stack them together...ahhh the wonders of cascading style sheets...
todae was a really fun day...no really...i haven't had so much fun in quite a while that i ran out of words to describe fun...aniwae went out for swensens with emi-chan (prev ami-chan, changed at her request), uki-san (prev yuki, changed it so that ppl wouldn't tink he was a girl) and tiki-san...can't really remember wat we toked about, i just remembered that i went crazy todae when i saw a whole lot of anime series at cash convertors...so i bought sakura wars, nadia and record of loddoss war. For 17 bucks! Compare that to the time when i shelled out 30 bucks for my ai yori aoshi set...and it was half-priced then. I tink i scared a lot of ppl todae...
Bcos i ran out of money on the spur of the money i called neko-chan...who just so happened to be in tampines at that time....and i feel so guilty for draggin her all they way down to swensens from tm. Its all uki's fault though...he didn't want to lend me the 50 bucks in his pocket.
I'm a very happy bugger now.
And this would prob never reach her...but happy birthday Joy!
Wednesday, August 18, 2004
making out in japanese
And now, taking a break from studying, i present my top ten fav jap words n phrases as taken from the book "Making Out in Japanese" given to me by ami-chan for my sec 4 brithday...
10-Yariman(whore)
9-Busu(ugly)
8-Okama(fag)
7-Urasai-wane(You'r noisy)
6-Baka-yaro(your stupid)
5-Chikuso(Damm it)
4-Chibi-ko(Shorty)
3-Tansho(Your tool is small)(A very powerful word)
2-Honto-ni aishiteru-nara, "Sashimi taberu?" -itte kikanai-de
(If you really love me you'll stop asking me to eat sashimi)(wtf?)
1-Aka-chan hoshikunai-no(I don't want to have a baby)
(ever so useful for girls i can assure you)
And don't worry these are all colloquial japanese so u won't look like a haku-jin(white boy) when u decide to try them out on the locals...haha. (They will slap u though...)
10-Yariman(whore)
9-Busu(ugly)
8-Okama(fag)
7-Urasai-wane(You'r noisy)
6-Baka-yaro(your stupid)
5-Chikuso(Damm it)
4-Chibi-ko(Shorty)
3-Tansho(Your tool is small)(A very powerful word)
2-Honto-ni aishiteru-nara, "Sashimi taberu?" -itte kikanai-de
(If you really love me you'll stop asking me to eat sashimi)(wtf?)
1-Aka-chan hoshikunai-no(I don't want to have a baby)
(ever so useful for girls i can assure you)
And don't worry these are all colloquial japanese so u won't look like a haku-jin(white boy) when u decide to try them out on the locals...haha. (They will slap u though...)
An unsually productive day
Yuki came over todae and we studied for like 2 hours before we played the xbox...that would make it the most number of hours i have seriously since like...forever
Somehow we got into a very serious argument about whether a song sung in a different key, in a rock style with different lyrics and only vaguely possibly similar guitar riffs was the same song as utada hikaru's hikari.
U can prob guess what side i took.
Lost in translation review will go up todae if i can get hello to work.
Somehow we got into a very serious argument about whether a song sung in a different key, in a rock style with different lyrics and only vaguely possibly similar guitar riffs was the same song as utada hikaru's hikari.
U can prob guess what side i took.
Lost in translation review will go up todae if i can get hello to work.
Tuesday, August 17, 2004
Slice of life
Since i'm closing my livejournal account...i thought i would move all the old posts that survived here ...
2003-08-30 23:26:00 Busking...
yep. u read right. I had busking with the harmonica band on staurday. It was really screwed in the beginning though. The students council didn't tell us the location b4 hand (not that it mattered anyway, it started to rain and we moved to a sheltered location), and when we got there, we were told that only 5 of us could play at any one time, which was darned near impossible, seeing that we had 1 bass 1 chord and 1 keyboardist, so that left like two people to play the main melody on the harmonica. So what did we do? Screw the teacher. we just played. Not that she knew what we were doing anyway. She came late, went shopping, and left early. Which was fine with us. We just let the SC dance(they did mass dance while we played the harmonica) while she was there, and played when she left. It was quite fun, the busking part. Only thing was, we had long break time in between that were really boring, thats when we talked a lot of crap about how miss ting was a bitch and how badly we were playing and how stiff section one (me, kelvin, teck chew and hidayat) was so stiff while playing. We were supposed to raise money for our college open house, but seriously, no one cared. We were just performing for our own enjoyment. Luckily, it went off without a hitch(the police didn't come to arrest us, we didn't run out of batteries for the keyboard, no one played too many wrong notes, and we didn't get caught by mrs ting). It was well worth the two weeks of practice we put in, and considering that when i came home the only thing i could think of was sleep, that was no mean feat. I wish we could busk more often, and earn some money of our own. And the next time, i'll tell you'all about it, so that maybe u can come doown and watch (though i doubt u would want to spend 1 hour on transport just to listen to 20 mins of less than stellar playing by amateur harmonica students).
I luv my harmonica.
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2003-08-15 21:19:00 Yoohoo...
Hmmm, the last entry sounded a bit desperate, didn't it? Must be the lack of sleep i'm getting. Or rather the excess sleep. Why is it that u can sleep for 10 hours and still fell so godammed tired. I can't find the energy to do my work and my tutors are berating me for that. i really wish i could do it though.
Theres this band i 'm into right now, its called Dishwalla. They have been around for quite some time, but i only noticed when their song Angels or Devils featured in one episode of Smallville. Theres also this song called Mad World by Gary Jules thats really nice. For some reason it makes me quite sad....
Smallville as a series is quite cliched, every episode someone gets infected with the stupid kryptonite and superman goes to the rescue, but at the very least, the music is good. I've uncovered many gems that i would have otherwise have never found. Its a bit like the series Roswell. It went downhill after they started to introduce aliens from another planet, but for a while it was my favourite series, especially in the first season. I loved it not only because it had a beautiful actress in Shyri Appleby(sp?), but also because the music was really beautiful and haunting, It introduced to artistes like Sarah Mchlachlan, Majandra Delfino and Save Ferris, who while are not exactly indie artistes, receive far less airtime(sometimes 0) on Singapore radio. Smallville is in the same vein. Beautiful actress, beautiful music...i hope it doesn't go the way of Roswell.
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2003-08-13 22:01:00 aloha.
theres this nice song in jolin's album that features jay chou. Its called bu la ge kuan chang. he goes ah ah busok, ah ah busok. Its one of the nicer songs on the album. Other than that and shuo ai ni, jolin's album kan wo qi shi er bian isn't very nice. i don't even like the title track.
i have a very packed weekend. On saturday morning there will be a chinese common test, in the afternoon parent teacher meeting, and in the evening taekwando farewell dinner. what a rush!
amelia's livejournal got me thinking about what i'm going to be. I chose this course because it offered me a wide range of choices, and i always thought that i would be able to choose a career path inn jc. Well, six months in and it turns out i still have no idea what i want to be. and it turns out that i may not have much time left to choose. One of the lecturers said that if we wanted to get into medicine its best if we go for a job attachment during the december holidays. i wonder whether i still have the same interest in the lifesciences and research that i had before. i'm not sure what i'm thinking. i''m not even sure what i'm interested in. Should i go into medicine or research? I have this funny feeling i'm not going to do either. well, if i continue to get the grades i'm getting i won't have much choice will i?
I did this image personality test, and i chose the image that represents a reflector. I also did a written personality test in class and came up with the same thing. If i'm supposed to be reflective and observant, why don't i even know what i want to be when i grow up? Maybe i 'm not yet interested in all that i've seen so far. I haven't found my true passion and calling in life. Then again, i don't want to be this laidback the rest of my life. my lack of "urgentness" scares the hell of me. Some of my friends are fretting about not doing well for promos, but they scored better than me in mid-yrs. and i very apathetic? or just lazy? I remember that the week b4 the mid-yrs, i cared more about my neopets and xbox than i did my mid-yrs, i started started 3 days b4 the first exam. Even then, i didn't feel a sense of urgency. The only real despair felt in the hour b4 the exam, but even then, it was "oh hell, f*** it, i'm never gonna finish studying".
Thats not good. Not good at all. I'm not compelled to do anything. i can't get home at the end of the day and take out my notes and revise, like i should be doing. I can't even be motivated to finish my hw. i want it to change. i want to study hard like my friends. i want to get good marks like everyone else. But these obviously aren't motivating factors(at least not for me). I think that they have a goal in life which they are working towards. I think i should have one too. Which brings us back full circle.
What is my ruddy goal in life!?
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2003-07-29 00:57:00 ???
What is slash?
And do i want to know what it is?
And the only way to get me off my neopets account is to hack it.
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2003-07-06 19:24:00 my first journal entry
i didn't know whether i should revive this journal or not, but what the hell, if i have time to play neopets, i definitely have time to update livejournal. And i feel gulty for reading other people's entries. so yeah, amelia, this is dedicated especially to you.
i just finished reading harrypotter-ootp, which i downloaded from the internet, since i don't have enough dough to shell out 30+bucks for the book, and because i want to finish procuring the other books first. i spent the whole of thursday and friday reading it, and wouldn't have slept except for the fact that rats sometimes scurry around the house at 3am in the morning, and that i had chinese oral practice the next morning,which i don't know why i even bother going. i'm gonna fail anyway, aren't i? Anyway, the book, was engrossing and absorbing, but not as good as the other books in the series. i say this because of several things: i think rowling overblew the whole teenage angsty thing. even if no one tried to kill us at birth, or required us to save the world, harry keeps getting pissed for no reason at all, and most of the time at his best friends. i also feel that he could have been nicer to cho chang. asshole. and i think sirius and james deserved to die, because of the way they treated snape. not that i don't think that snape is evil, but because i would hate the son of anyone who tried to bully me too. i think snape is justified to hate sirius and james. They are just like high school jocks, those big, fat, gits.rowling still manages to hide surprises nicely though. like the fact that hagrid brought home a giant. and her stroy telling is top notch. i just think that maybe she was too angsty in her youth.
in other unrelated, irrelevant and trivial news, i regret to inform everyone, that my morning musume obsession, has proven to be exceptionally short-lived even by my standards. i used to like mm because of maki and konno, but i found out that maki is a bit of a diva and konno, is nowhere to be seen. and now that its going to spilt into two, and that they have formed shuffle groups with names like SALT5, 7AIR and 11 WATER, well...sayonara it was fun while it lasted.
i just finished my mid-yr on thursday. needless to say, it was horrible, because i studied chemistry and biology only the day before, and that i left blank 29 marks worth of questions for a 100 mark maths paper , and that i didn't understand what i was writing in economics, and even in SAT, i forgot to bring an eraser for a paper that was all mcq and otas. thats why i'm hogging the comp and xbox until tuesday, the release of the results, because my parents will most probably lock everything then.
oh yeah, last of all, my music reecommendation of the week utada hikaru - Hikari (Kingdom Hearts Theme Song). i prefer the orchestra version, but then utada's voice ain't half bad. theres's a english version called simple and clean that's very nice too. okay, i know i'm not really helpful, but download this song, even if u don't like utada(which i didn't, not until i heard this song anyway).
Looks familiar...doesn't it
2003-08-30 23:26:00 Busking...
yep. u read right. I had busking with the harmonica band on staurday. It was really screwed in the beginning though. The students council didn't tell us the location b4 hand (not that it mattered anyway, it started to rain and we moved to a sheltered location), and when we got there, we were told that only 5 of us could play at any one time, which was darned near impossible, seeing that we had 1 bass 1 chord and 1 keyboardist, so that left like two people to play the main melody on the harmonica. So what did we do? Screw the teacher. we just played. Not that she knew what we were doing anyway. She came late, went shopping, and left early. Which was fine with us. We just let the SC dance(they did mass dance while we played the harmonica) while she was there, and played when she left. It was quite fun, the busking part. Only thing was, we had long break time in between that were really boring, thats when we talked a lot of crap about how miss ting was a bitch and how badly we were playing and how stiff section one (me, kelvin, teck chew and hidayat) was so stiff while playing. We were supposed to raise money for our college open house, but seriously, no one cared. We were just performing for our own enjoyment. Luckily, it went off without a hitch(the police didn't come to arrest us, we didn't run out of batteries for the keyboard, no one played too many wrong notes, and we didn't get caught by mrs ting). It was well worth the two weeks of practice we put in, and considering that when i came home the only thing i could think of was sleep, that was no mean feat. I wish we could busk more often, and earn some money of our own. And the next time, i'll tell you'all about it, so that maybe u can come doown and watch (though i doubt u would want to spend 1 hour on transport just to listen to 20 mins of less than stellar playing by amateur harmonica students).
I luv my harmonica.
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2003-08-15 21:19:00 Yoohoo...
Hmmm, the last entry sounded a bit desperate, didn't it? Must be the lack of sleep i'm getting. Or rather the excess sleep. Why is it that u can sleep for 10 hours and still fell so godammed tired. I can't find the energy to do my work and my tutors are berating me for that. i really wish i could do it though.
Theres this band i 'm into right now, its called Dishwalla. They have been around for quite some time, but i only noticed when their song Angels or Devils featured in one episode of Smallville. Theres also this song called Mad World by Gary Jules thats really nice. For some reason it makes me quite sad....
Smallville as a series is quite cliched, every episode someone gets infected with the stupid kryptonite and superman goes to the rescue, but at the very least, the music is good. I've uncovered many gems that i would have otherwise have never found. Its a bit like the series Roswell. It went downhill after they started to introduce aliens from another planet, but for a while it was my favourite series, especially in the first season. I loved it not only because it had a beautiful actress in Shyri Appleby(sp?), but also because the music was really beautiful and haunting, It introduced to artistes like Sarah Mchlachlan, Majandra Delfino and Save Ferris, who while are not exactly indie artistes, receive far less airtime(sometimes 0) on Singapore radio. Smallville is in the same vein. Beautiful actress, beautiful music...i hope it doesn't go the way of Roswell.
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2003-08-13 22:01:00 aloha.
theres this nice song in jolin's album that features jay chou. Its called bu la ge kuan chang. he goes ah ah busok, ah ah busok. Its one of the nicer songs on the album. Other than that and shuo ai ni, jolin's album kan wo qi shi er bian isn't very nice. i don't even like the title track.
i have a very packed weekend. On saturday morning there will be a chinese common test, in the afternoon parent teacher meeting, and in the evening taekwando farewell dinner. what a rush!
amelia's livejournal got me thinking about what i'm going to be. I chose this course because it offered me a wide range of choices, and i always thought that i would be able to choose a career path inn jc. Well, six months in and it turns out i still have no idea what i want to be. and it turns out that i may not have much time left to choose. One of the lecturers said that if we wanted to get into medicine its best if we go for a job attachment during the december holidays. i wonder whether i still have the same interest in the lifesciences and research that i had before. i'm not sure what i'm thinking. i''m not even sure what i'm interested in. Should i go into medicine or research? I have this funny feeling i'm not going to do either. well, if i continue to get the grades i'm getting i won't have much choice will i?
I did this image personality test, and i chose the image that represents a reflector. I also did a written personality test in class and came up with the same thing. If i'm supposed to be reflective and observant, why don't i even know what i want to be when i grow up? Maybe i 'm not yet interested in all that i've seen so far. I haven't found my true passion and calling in life. Then again, i don't want to be this laidback the rest of my life. my lack of "urgentness" scares the hell of me. Some of my friends are fretting about not doing well for promos, but they scored better than me in mid-yrs. and i very apathetic? or just lazy? I remember that the week b4 the mid-yrs, i cared more about my neopets and xbox than i did my mid-yrs, i started started 3 days b4 the first exam. Even then, i didn't feel a sense of urgency. The only real despair felt in the hour b4 the exam, but even then, it was "oh hell, f*** it, i'm never gonna finish studying".
Thats not good. Not good at all. I'm not compelled to do anything. i can't get home at the end of the day and take out my notes and revise, like i should be doing. I can't even be motivated to finish my hw. i want it to change. i want to study hard like my friends. i want to get good marks like everyone else. But these obviously aren't motivating factors(at least not for me). I think that they have a goal in life which they are working towards. I think i should have one too. Which brings us back full circle.
What is my ruddy goal in life!?
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2003-07-29 00:57:00 ???
What is slash?
And do i want to know what it is?
And the only way to get me off my neopets account is to hack it.
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2003-07-06 19:24:00 my first journal entry
i didn't know whether i should revive this journal or not, but what the hell, if i have time to play neopets, i definitely have time to update livejournal. And i feel gulty for reading other people's entries. so yeah, amelia, this is dedicated especially to you.
i just finished reading harrypotter-ootp, which i downloaded from the internet, since i don't have enough dough to shell out 30+bucks for the book, and because i want to finish procuring the other books first. i spent the whole of thursday and friday reading it, and wouldn't have slept except for the fact that rats sometimes scurry around the house at 3am in the morning, and that i had chinese oral practice the next morning,which i don't know why i even bother going. i'm gonna fail anyway, aren't i? Anyway, the book, was engrossing and absorbing, but not as good as the other books in the series. i say this because of several things: i think rowling overblew the whole teenage angsty thing. even if no one tried to kill us at birth, or required us to save the world, harry keeps getting pissed for no reason at all, and most of the time at his best friends. i also feel that he could have been nicer to cho chang. asshole. and i think sirius and james deserved to die, because of the way they treated snape. not that i don't think that snape is evil, but because i would hate the son of anyone who tried to bully me too. i think snape is justified to hate sirius and james. They are just like high school jocks, those big, fat, gits.rowling still manages to hide surprises nicely though. like the fact that hagrid brought home a giant. and her stroy telling is top notch. i just think that maybe she was too angsty in her youth.
in other unrelated, irrelevant and trivial news, i regret to inform everyone, that my morning musume obsession, has proven to be exceptionally short-lived even by my standards. i used to like mm because of maki and konno, but i found out that maki is a bit of a diva and konno, is nowhere to be seen. and now that its going to spilt into two, and that they have formed shuffle groups with names like SALT5, 7AIR and 11 WATER, well...sayonara it was fun while it lasted.
i just finished my mid-yr on thursday. needless to say, it was horrible, because i studied chemistry and biology only the day before, and that i left blank 29 marks worth of questions for a 100 mark maths paper , and that i didn't understand what i was writing in economics, and even in SAT, i forgot to bring an eraser for a paper that was all mcq and otas. thats why i'm hogging the comp and xbox until tuesday, the release of the results, because my parents will most probably lock everything then.
oh yeah, last of all, my music reecommendation of the week utada hikaru - Hikari (Kingdom Hearts Theme Song). i prefer the orchestra version, but then utada's voice ain't half bad. theres's a english version called simple and clean that's very nice too. okay, i know i'm not really helpful, but download this song, even if u don't like utada(which i didn't, not until i heard this song anyway).
Looks familiar...doesn't it
haha
ponning maths lecture rite now...hahah don't feel like like listening to someone talk for hours on end...
its something i fail to unserstand really...i'm usually a very good listener...i listen to my frens complaining and ranting and bullshitting but yet i can't stay still for 1 hour for wat i'm sure is ultimately beneficial and enriching to me...
sort of like how when i get home i switch on my computer and stay glued there for like 5 hours finding stuff to download and surfing around...and ignoring the huge pile of stuff that i hav lying around and which i planned on studying already. My mum used to say that i was wasting my time playing computer, and a few months ago i would hav said that she was wrong and that studies weren't important and that some things in life were more important...
I think that she may be right.
Not that studying is the most important thing in life and that i hav no other better things to do...just that at certain points in life somethings change...priorities change, opinions change and sometimes the facts change...and at this point i think that studying shld take priority...
If only i can back into the groove of studying.
its something i fail to unserstand really...i'm usually a very good listener...i listen to my frens complaining and ranting and bullshitting but yet i can't stay still for 1 hour for wat i'm sure is ultimately beneficial and enriching to me...
sort of like how when i get home i switch on my computer and stay glued there for like 5 hours finding stuff to download and surfing around...and ignoring the huge pile of stuff that i hav lying around and which i planned on studying already. My mum used to say that i was wasting my time playing computer, and a few months ago i would hav said that she was wrong and that studies weren't important and that some things in life were more important...
I think that she may be right.
Not that studying is the most important thing in life and that i hav no other better things to do...just that at certain points in life somethings change...priorities change, opinions change and sometimes the facts change...and at this point i think that studying shld take priority...
If only i can back into the groove of studying.
Monday, August 16, 2004
Apathy
I hate the life I'm leaving...
A few years ago i was in this exact same rut, this same...non-existence...i thought i had turned around, thought i had made it good...results, relationships, everything u could think of...i thot i had conquered it...
Now i realised that i had just made it smaller.
But the darkness returns, little by little it returned back to my side...and now i don't noe whether i still have the strength to fight it again or not...
And no...this is not turning into why my life is so horrible, i just want to kill myself...if theres nothing i hate more let it be self pity...
Which is why i'm going to fight it...and i noe i'll win...
A few years ago i was in this exact same rut, this same...non-existence...i thought i had turned around, thought i had made it good...results, relationships, everything u could think of...i thot i had conquered it...
Now i realised that i had just made it smaller.
But the darkness returns, little by little it returned back to my side...and now i don't noe whether i still have the strength to fight it again or not...
And no...this is not turning into why my life is so horrible, i just want to kill myself...if theres nothing i hate more let it be self pity...
Which is why i'm going to fight it...and i noe i'll win...
Sunday, August 15, 2004
Blogging about blogging
I remember my first blog was very minimalist, and a very gay purple color...which was modelled after the blog started by the first girl i ever really loved, marit larsen.
Most ppl won't ever remember her but she was one half of the pop duo m2m. Throughout my relatively short life and my even shorter infatuation with pop music, my dalliance with m2m has been a constant source of ridicule and patronise(n)...but i still stand by them, 2 years after they broke up. for me m2m was never about the duo but marit...the sweet looking girl with the even more amazing seraphim voice(some would say saccharine)...too bad she was overshadowed by marion raven. Their first album "shades of purple" was the first and only album whose tracks i loved from start to finish...till todae i still pop it in and listen from time to time.
I wasn't the first, and wouldn't be the last to be infatuated with her...till todae most of the m2m websites still left standing are in tribute to marit...m2m was a manufactured confection, marit was forever...but this entry isn't about her, although it would appear to be that way(this pales in comparison actually to what i hav to say about her), its just that its a part of my blogging history, a lone string in a spider web, but one which held all the rest together...
Ever since then i hav made various blogs in various places...only to dismantle them and start anew...until for me blogging became somewhat of a chore, a nuisance...i concentrated instead on fiddling with layouts and stuff...until now.
So why start now? Why do what i always hated?
Because i realised that slowly but surely i felt i was wasting my life away. lotsa of people have all this memories, these thoughts, these fantasies that made them what they were. For too long i concentrated on blogging what i did, where i went, what i ate...etc, and much less on what i felt and thought. And these thoughts, these fantasies of mine, were slipping away ever so surely ever so etherally into the combined oasis of human conciousness ...such that i could no longer distinguish what was mine, what i owned...what i had become.
So this blog is about reclaiming what i thought i had lost, what could only be and would always be mine only; my experiences, my happy endings, my sad endings, the things i learned and the thinsg i could care less about learning, the frens i made, the frens i lost, the things i like and dislike, what i feel and why i feel...like the way i feel about marit.
huh.
To me your my little corner of secrets, your everything and nothing at the same time...my eternal box of cookies.
i said i would blog about lost in translation, but that can wait another day. and i decided i would blog about my fren also...i just hav to remember not to qive her this address.
Most ppl won't ever remember her but she was one half of the pop duo m2m. Throughout my relatively short life and my even shorter infatuation with pop music, my dalliance with m2m has been a constant source of ridicule and patronise(n)...but i still stand by them, 2 years after they broke up. for me m2m was never about the duo but marit...the sweet looking girl with the even more amazing seraphim voice(some would say saccharine)...too bad she was overshadowed by marion raven. Their first album "shades of purple" was the first and only album whose tracks i loved from start to finish...till todae i still pop it in and listen from time to time.
I wasn't the first, and wouldn't be the last to be infatuated with her...till todae most of the m2m websites still left standing are in tribute to marit...m2m was a manufactured confection, marit was forever...but this entry isn't about her, although it would appear to be that way(this pales in comparison actually to what i hav to say about her), its just that its a part of my blogging history, a lone string in a spider web, but one which held all the rest together...
Ever since then i hav made various blogs in various places...only to dismantle them and start anew...until for me blogging became somewhat of a chore, a nuisance...i concentrated instead on fiddling with layouts and stuff...until now.
So why start now? Why do what i always hated?
Because i realised that slowly but surely i felt i was wasting my life away. lotsa of people have all this memories, these thoughts, these fantasies that made them what they were. For too long i concentrated on blogging what i did, where i went, what i ate...etc, and much less on what i felt and thought. And these thoughts, these fantasies of mine, were slipping away ever so surely ever so etherally into the combined oasis of human conciousness ...such that i could no longer distinguish what was mine, what i owned...what i had become.
So this blog is about reclaiming what i thought i had lost, what could only be and would always be mine only; my experiences, my happy endings, my sad endings, the things i learned and the thinsg i could care less about learning, the frens i made, the frens i lost, the things i like and dislike, what i feel and why i feel...like the way i feel about marit.
huh.
To me your my little corner of secrets, your everything and nothing at the same time...my eternal box of cookies.
i said i would blog about lost in translation, but that can wait another day. and i decided i would blog about my fren also...i just hav to remember not to qive her this address.
Saturday, August 14, 2004
Basket Case
...Thats what i am for waking up at 6.15 in the morning for an econs talk on the state of the singapore economy...at nanyang poly. Let me never ever do that again.
It wouldn't hav been so bad if like more ppl came heh....but turns out that i'm like the only guy there from my class...a chance that other guys would relish perhaps...but not me.
Wasn't too bad in the end haha...speakers were quite interesting...and it looked like the entire tertiary population in singapore was represented, so many people were converging on that auditorium that they had to reserve 30 mins for ppl to settle down. i call it the birthplace of singapore's revolution...10 years down the road...our future leaders will look down fondly on this day and remember it as the day when the sparks of fire were lighted in the cockles of their heart...just like jimi hendrix and his burning of his guitar at woodstock inspired a whole new genration of rock players....
I"M SURE LAH -_-
I bet most ppl forgot what it was about the moment they left the talk...i sure as hell did.
Becos i had church at 7 at pasir ris...and i left yio chu kang at like 12...i had this crazy idea that i could hang out until then...basket idea no2. Lunch ended by 2, swensens ice cream at 3.30...hmmm still had 3 hours left.
Basket idea no3. Decided to take a nap at tampines library.
Its such a wonder how your body can contort around 90 degrees right angles and compress into a 1 metre by 30 cm wooden bench when your really tired heh...and now my back is arched out in a very wierd angle and makes funny noises when i walk....ah the joys of life.
Went home and read someones journal entry...hav lotsa thingys to say but not here...
Tmr: lost in translation!
It wouldn't hav been so bad if like more ppl came heh....but turns out that i'm like the only guy there from my class...a chance that other guys would relish perhaps...but not me.
Wasn't too bad in the end haha...speakers were quite interesting...and it looked like the entire tertiary population in singapore was represented, so many people were converging on that auditorium that they had to reserve 30 mins for ppl to settle down. i call it the birthplace of singapore's revolution...10 years down the road...our future leaders will look down fondly on this day and remember it as the day when the sparks of fire were lighted in the cockles of their heart...just like jimi hendrix and his burning of his guitar at woodstock inspired a whole new genration of rock players....
I"M SURE LAH -_-
I bet most ppl forgot what it was about the moment they left the talk...i sure as hell did.
Becos i had church at 7 at pasir ris...and i left yio chu kang at like 12...i had this crazy idea that i could hang out until then...basket idea no2. Lunch ended by 2, swensens ice cream at 3.30...hmmm still had 3 hours left.
Basket idea no3. Decided to take a nap at tampines library.
Its such a wonder how your body can contort around 90 degrees right angles and compress into a 1 metre by 30 cm wooden bench when your really tired heh...and now my back is arched out in a very wierd angle and makes funny noises when i walk....ah the joys of life.
Went home and read someones journal entry...hav lotsa thingys to say but not here...
Tmr: lost in translation!
Friday, August 13, 2004
sw00t
woah....this shit really works
in case u were wondering about the site address, heres the story:
site:http://banchan.blogspot.com
Sorry, that site is not availiable.
Fuck.
site:http://ginji.blogspot.com
Sorry, that site is not availiable.
FUCK.
site:http://hibiki.blogspot.com
Sorry, that site is not availiable.
-_-
site:http://konno-chan.blogspot.com
Congratulations u hav created your blog...now u can go on to make the first post
Yay! Wait.................oh fuck.
asami konno is one of the members of morning musume...and she also as cute as a button. But that doesn't mean i want to be know as konno-chan...oh well...baka blogspot.
http://images.google.com.sg/images?q=konno+asami&hl=en&lr=&ie=UTF-8&sa=G&imgsz=xxlarge
Now that i think about it...there was prob a min character limit...but why didn't they just say so?.
Now if u will excuse me i hav to find a visually stunning, earth shattering, house sweeping, chair swinging, trash talking, shuriken throwing, ninja gardening, bill paying, chiobu buaying, llama lauching, sw00t looking but UTTERLY useless template so u can all gawk at it and forget about all the shit thats written over here.
Peace.
in case u were wondering about the site address, heres the story:
site:http://banchan.blogspot.com
Sorry, that site is not availiable.
Fuck.
site:http://ginji.blogspot.com
Sorry, that site is not availiable.
FUCK.
site:http://hibiki.blogspot.com
Sorry, that site is not availiable.
-_-
site:http://konno-chan.blogspot.com
Congratulations u hav created your blog...now u can go on to make the first post
Yay! Wait.................oh fuck.
asami konno is one of the members of morning musume...and she also as cute as a button. But that doesn't mean i want to be know as konno-chan...oh well...baka blogspot.
http://images.google.com.sg/images?q=konno+asami&hl=en&lr=&ie=UTF-8&sa=G&imgsz=xxlarge
Now that i think about it...there was prob a min character limit...but why didn't they just say so?.
Now if u will excuse me i hav to find a visually stunning, earth shattering, house sweeping, chair swinging, trash talking, shuriken throwing, ninja gardening, bill paying, chiobu buaying, llama lauching, sw00t looking but UTTERLY useless template so u can all gawk at it and forget about all the shit thats written over here.
Peace.
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