i hate it i hate it i hate it...

i hate how my writing has gone down the drain...

i hate how i can't recognise complex words

i hate how my writing comes out in spurts instead of flowing like the free spirited beast it once was.

And most of all i hate how cheesy it has become.

So yesterday i watched "An Inconvenient truth"..

I know i'm a little way behind the rest of the developed world...hey i couldn't download much with stupid WoW running in the background okay.

Is it sick of me to find this film thats based on a slideshow on climate change..the most touching film i have seen in the past year? there's something wrong right?

and yet i couldn't help but feel for this man who spent the better part of his life on a one man crusade to save the environment by giving the same presentation a thousand times over...this ex vice-president who lost his one good chance to steer the world clear of disaster when he lost to the hick that is the current U.S president..i mean this film is really really sad

Also watched "Borat". which quite frankly was a little dissapointing. Now this "borat" fella.. his modus operandi (sp?) is to appear as a boorish and crude foreign reporter, goad his unsuspecting "interviewee" into making comments that they wouldn't have said in any other circumstance. thus revealing their true bigoted/racist/prejudiced self. At least thats what he does on the Ali G show...

but in this film...the majority of reactions are well...normal. I mean the people on this film handled it pretty well. most of the humour comes from sascha acting like a dick. which quite frankly makes it no different from any film starring jack black. Except its supposedly "real". (some scenes were staged) i mean come on america is the land of white supremacists, religious fanatics, scientologists and bush ...and all the best you could do was interview drunk frat boys and feminists? And they couldn't even say anything funny...

Its still worth a watch. Not worth money though ..not at that length..

Stil have A Scanner Darkly and March of the Penguins. hmm .. *glomps*

went to Boon Kian's 21st birthday "gathering" (he doesn't want to call it a party) on sunday. The place was swarmed with people...we had to go in batches to take a photo with the birthday boy and the cake. There was easily 80 people there i believe.. Most i never met before..some i haven't seen in 5 years. My social capacity can only take so much...

saw Her there. She still hasn't realised that shes actually secretly deeply in love with me. I'm getting impatient... *tap* *tap* Secondary school...sigh ..fun stuff. Miss it sometimes.

hmm lots of time to plan for my 21st birthday

some short and fat woman grinded me with her fat boobs on the bus today. go away fat people i don't like yous all.

I came across this photoshop technique today that's fucking easy to duplicate...and produces great results. Works best on raw portrait pictures with high detail and good lighting.

This is a picture i chose to work(in the loosest sense of the work) on a high definition mag scan of a natalie portman photoshoot.

The next photo is after 1 min of editing.

How to do this trick? You start off with a picture in photoshop, duplicate the background layer.

On this 2nd layer you apply a gaussian blur. The amount that needs to be applied relies on the amount of detail. ideally it should be around 10-20. Any more and the effect becomes overly magnified.You should still be able make out the general outline of the object. Go to blending options on the second layer and select overlay. voila.

Other generally good modes to try out include solf light. Which replicates the mood of a 90's soap drama. Like Days Of Our Lifes or something. Hard light is well..harsh. Vivid light gives the feel of an acid trip. So in my opinion overlay is stil best :)

I replicated this on a photography of the recent s1a board games outing. source image is very good coming from a 3 megapixel camera that wasn't my own :) its a tad...bland though.

Hehe.

So i was on autopilot in the office as usual (be glad i don't handle important stuff) when i spot something wierd. Not sure what to make of it in my self-induced dream state i took pictures :)

Hmm this warrants a closer shot.....you can just make out something...

Hmm almost there just needs a bit of fine-tuning....the edges need to be sharpened a bit, clear off abit of the grain...

IS THAT YOU JESUS?????????????????????????????????????????????

Beh. I need a job that doesn't make me feel like i'm geting butt-raped each day

And the HAIR is giving me problems it won't grow as i tell it to. It gets in my ears pokes my eye...just be patient a while longer my preciousss.

End of an era

On January 10 2007..i ended my love affair with the game known as World Of Warcrack

It was only a question of when i was gonna quit..i had planned on quitting when uni started, but having to buy the new expansion, and train to lvl 70 again to experience "end-game again"...just didnt' make sense to me.

Why i loved the game

I picked up the game at a low point in my life. I had already resigned myself to seeing my 2 years of army life as a craptacular waste of time. Silly i know. Many people have done a lot more with much lesser. I wasn't that kinda person though. So i thought i could fill it up with something fun.

And fun it was. Much has been said about how addictive the game is, i guess i don't need to elaborate further. Morever I had the joy of being inducted in a guild with clearly defined goals, a clear sense of direction of where it was headed and a great group of people to play with. I was made the druid honcho, they didn't have a choice really LOL. Quickly we became the horde side PVP guild to beat all the way to level 60...but then being one of the younger and more outgeared guilds we switched quickly to PVE. We surpassed guilds that had been there for far longer..and in the long run we proved that we were the strongest guild to emerge, sticking together relatively drama free while other guilds crashed/burned/merged. And we did it while having fun. But all that accomplisment came at a price.

Why i'm quitting.

I came to the realisation that every hour i put into these little avatars, these little offshoots of mine, accomplishing their goals and objectives, was one less hour for me to achieve my own goals and objectives for the real life living and breathing me.

These pictures illustrate the amount of time i put into 2 of my most played characters, Kiliah and Konno. Total time played 54 day 13 hours. not counting the time spent also on misc characters. Thats not 54 days including sleeping like in your regular day thats 54 days purely spent in front of the computer. Thats slightly over 1300 hours. Pretty sure entire diplomas have been build around the same amout of time in coursework.

So thats it i guess. Time to move forward. On to bigger and better things.

Then he spontaneously reaches out to stroke a furry pink cat sewn on my blouse
and exclaims in sing-song, dulcet tones which have a hint of a British accent
about them: 'Oh, you've got a little kitty, how cute!'

The two-hour
interview with him is a somewhat bizarre combination of making small talk with a
gracious society hostess over tea, swapping gossip with a girlfriend and
attending like an office-girl to a snobby boss.

The last comes about
when, at one point during our chat, he asks dramatically - like a woman fighting
back collapse - for water because 'Oh, Clah-rah, I'm so very thirsty'.

- guess who. An absolute 10 on the gaydar meter! A true example of nuture vs nature...poor kid read Chinese fashion novels and his mother's Her World magazines. HER WORLD!!!

to the person who should know who you are and the slightest remotest chance you read this:

Stop throwing a hissy fit. Your 20 for goodness sakes act like it (21 for all i know)...

i read the chat logs you were wrong you misunderstood

how dare you come around and cast aspersions on us

maybe thats how you managed to piss people off...

Was in a Panadol Induced Stupor for monday and tuesday ...high fever body aches, you feel your body radiating heat and its all chilly...breaking out in cold sweat throughout the night and you can't sleep..not a very good feeling.

Managed to watch 10 episodes of prison break...was pretty good. thought the main actor was a bit retarded. Until they revealed that the character had a disorder : Low Latent Inhibition http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Latent_inhibition. Which sorta make him psycho in a creative genius kinda way. Which makes the actor really really good..

I'm also locking myself up at home now for my own good.

i don't ask for much. just lots and lots of hugs. and sex. and cuddles after sex. and someone to talk to at night. and someone to eat breakfast/lunch/dinner with. and someone who understands my little eccencitries and not only isn't put off by them but is actually attracted to them. Mostly though i just want someone to cuddle with.

Signed up for a jap elementary 1 course....my main worry is not whether the class will be good or not..it whether i have the money to continue it in future. I like japanese culture and i wanna be able to read it, but lets face it...between tuition fees, and things like electricity bills... somethings gotta give. And i have the feeling the victim will be the "lets make good understand of each other!" course. Ah but why worry now about stuff in the future when you have things to worry about now =P.

My enthusiasm for outings has now waned. They aren't a good way at all of nurturing relationships. They are good for making sure you don't forget the other persons faces. And they drain money. Sometimes though when the other persons spends a good part of the time overseas its all you can do i guess.

I love it when you call
I love it when you call
I love it when you call
But you never call at all
So what's the complication it's only conversation
I love it when you call
But you never call at all


Hm shouldn't it be the other way around??

From Top : Arab street, Marina Bay bbq, Singapore Skyline from Mount Faber, Cloudy White Balance + Light Reflection = Nice Sepia Effect, Our Nicely Packed Bikes, Vivocity At Night, The Gothenberg.

So these pictures are from the rest of the outings i had. Thats about 300/400 plus wiped out in less than 2 weeks. Kinda freaky. Most of the money went to little stuff like lunch/dinner/transport rather then let say ..big ticket items. And everybody knows how hard it is to give a shit about the little stuff..

Went a bit crazy with the photo-taking. I did learn several things though. If your going to take photos, do it quickly. Take many at a time. Play with the white balance. Don't use flash (It makes for lousy printouts but its great for web/thumbnails).

So from top: Jr, TK Me, Ame Becky and Yiling went to the hip district of Arab Street. Which in reality is just another tourist trap. Along the way though we spotted this purple colored building with a matching purple colored van! Groovy.. had bryani for lunch and played Munchkin! after at MOS while drinking milk, milk tea and milkshakes. Hey if the place doesn't deliver make your own entertainment right?

Eh second picture is that of a marina bay bbq/steamboat with ORD personnel. They are all also very very gay.

Final series is of a night bike trail with sec npcc guys. From east coast --> esplanade--> st james --> mount faber--> sentosa --> palawan beach --> sentosa --> vivocity --> geylang (for food for food!)---> and back to east coast. Singapore looks beautiful at night. Its also a aweful waste of electricity =P. i never really undestood the allure of secluded places like mount faber and misc beaches and carparks for assorted stages of love making...but i must say if you own a car..more power to you! Mount faber was a whore to climb (with bike) and we ended up all sweaty and bitchy but once we reached the top ..hey it wasn't so bad. Theres just something about looking down on singapore with a nice chilly breeze caressing your face amid a zen like tree on top of hill atmosphere and warm soft light shining from below...that really wants to make you fuck like bunnies. hur hur hur. Really nice place to be though. Thats why i love the night. Totally different atmosphere from oh lets say..the day? hard to convey in words..hope the pictures do it justice. They are very yellowey i know..on purpose wan.

oh hoho : " You fall in love at the drop of a hat..." thats certainly true

Sunday

Top : beverley morata of singapore idol fame performing in the band "SYRA"

Bottom : my jubei guild mate david's gf "moochelle" holding an apple martini

Sunday woke up rushed home was out of the house double quick time to meet the class guys at PS for lunch at 12. We started eatin at 2 lol. For some reason i don't have photos, and i can't remember why. I was quite trigger happy these few days. We ended up playing dota and countersrike. I suck i know..only racked up kills when i was using sniper. still not bad lol, i last played the game at 6.20 against A.I

And now to the meat of this post... the countdown party! It was held at Shangri-la Orchard..which i must say is a very uloo place.. tickets were at 80 apiece. Which i must say i bought only becos i was assured that there were ppl going and also cos i was wanted a glimpse of how the elite in singapore were doing :) Otherwise i would have settled for an ordinary beach party or some club..

Well so yea entertainment was provided courtesy of guest DJ glenn ong who to my surprise provided very little commentary none of them particularly witty But all was forgiven when he brought his hawt wife onstage to dance onstage with another hawt girl who i did not recognise. Way to save your own ass buddy. Live band "SYRA" provided a mix of comtemporary favourites and feel good funky tunes, which was fronted by lead singer beverly morata. And boy can the girl move. Long before the dance floor was packed shes was dancing onstage to her own tune never missing a tune. Must have taken a lot of practice cos if she's a natural..she deserves a lot better than where she is now.

Girl in photo is michelle who i hope does not mind me publishing her photo lol. I really have no others...could have sworn i had more. My chances of getting photos from the rest are almost nil though, i'm still waiting on the holland V ones. Anyway yes thats what they provided..some lame feather cap. The guy version was a sparkly wide rim cowboy hat. Which went well with what most of my group wore, a black jacket over a shirt.

The SPGS were out in full force tonight. From what i could see 50 percent of the couples were of the hot asian girl with not very hot caucasian guy type. To each her own i guess. i used to think very badly of them, but now i can see why they choose this path. I dont' believe its for money even...its just that not so hot cacausian guy speaks well, understands them, and hey is generally better than the lot that they can get local.

Survived a half glass of whisky a martini and a cocktail..which really surprised me :) Came home after 2 days..crashed. My schedule didnt't allow me to burn yet though cos theres still...

Saturday

Top - What better way to digest 40 dolars worth of food consumed in a time span of 2 hour then a hard level sudoku puzzle? 4 people done in 7 mins

Middle - kt and thong

Bottom - umm..forgot to take the food before it was eaten..so here it is after

me jun and kt took thong out for lunch at kunshin bo. Nice japanese buffet at the regular price of 19.80. At 33.20(new year's special price!) though...not so hehehehe. We had sushi, cold soba noodles, teppanyaki, teriyaki sticks and a hot plate, and also ate a fuckload of chawanmushi and barbecued stuff. i feel like going there again..any takers?

After that crashed jun's house, watched NODAME till late. best jdrama this year, considering that goong the k drama is reigning supreme right now and there's not much competition from japanese dramas which brings me to ...

Friday

Watched curse of the golden flower. Highly recommended. Zhang Yi mou is an expert at combining the best of hollywood and chinese sword fighting flicks even if that combination doesn't always work so well. For example i loathed Crounching Tiger, Hidden Dragon , finding it to be bland. Here however he uses the source material to great effect, creating opulent sets worthy even of the most radical interpretations. Noteworthy too was the script; itself engaging and lucid, one of my favourite lines being "wo yao bi ni shi" ( i want to force you to die) as said by the empress. No doubt it will win lots of awards but i can't help feeling as if it was made for hollywood. the imagery was grand, colorful and gratuitous but it hardly left a longing impression. The film held you through every twist and development and in that sense i wished there were more to it, more for the viewer to find. Rather than what it is , a grand and epic film that under the hood is really very simple, even if it is enjoyable.

something happened after that left an unplesant aftertaste. even if i did aggravate it. but i guess its just the way i'm wired to behave. the matter got bured so thats it i guess..

Thursday

Top: me and shi-fu. glomps shi-fu! Unfortunately she speaks english as well as i do chinese.

Bottom: my colleagues at work on their best dressed day.

So thursday was my work place's dinner and dance which basically translates to a buffett dinner lots of oldie music and absolutely no dancing watsoever. yes there were performances and a lucky draw...but i didn't win anything so it sucked.

Since i didnt have anything to wear my colleagues and i headed out to vivo to look for something retro to wear.. grabbed the golf cap at hob-nob and the shirt at esprit. Which i love. A lot. For stocking the first slim fit S-size male polo t-shirt i have ever seen. So i grabbed it ..and what do you know when i asked for one not from the shelf i was told it was the only one they had. Huh.

damm you esprit. for being so expensive.

This is the scandalous picture

been a really busy week for me...am also now broke..ah the price to pay for fun.

the madness started on christmas eve, spent it with hc revat and laura ....their appearances have all changed so much cept laura, wats funny is that on the flip side revat and hc's personalites seem the same, while laura's seems to have deviated? can't find the right word
anyway went tcc nice milkshake.. went lau pa sat for food, went to a morrocan pub with indian music and had a drink , walked a fair bit, ended up the night on the beach talking.

christmas day spent lazing around emo-ing, then hopped off to see death note 2. Like the ending better than the manga, would have been worth the money if the projectionist didn't screw up and reeled in the wrong part of the film, we ended up watching the climax b4 the build up, luckily the ending was left intact.

took half day off on 26th, went to celb thongs with becky and ame birthday.. had a nice japanese lunch..

wednesday was the only free day i had....and the internet had to be down! i have this habit of opening digg and selecting links to open tabs with... and after the 15th or so tab i realised something was very wrong, wat a waste of a good day..

oops gotta run brb tmr.